Our "core self", the part of us that we carry all thru life...it is the person we are intended to be from the moment we are born...destiny...perhaps...perhaps not. God, the Universe...the powers that be...it's the light we are given...the direction we are intended to follow...but do we? Do we screw it up, ignore it, let it become influenced by our surroundings...of course we do...but it's the same light that we keep going back to...it's the "thing" everyone searches for...our identity...our place in this world. The light doesn't dim, but we close our eyes to it...second guess ourselves, go against our natural grain...in spite of ourselves. If we are lucky, and if we look in our hearts we will come back to it...and our reward will be contentment...contentment in our selves and contentment with the world around us. We all have a "Core Self" but we spend most of our lives trying to find it...and all of our lives trying to trust it. Age - the progression of time only serves to put fear in us...and with the fear comes a more determined search...not to mention a whole life's worth of doing the wrong things...trial and error...that's what comes with age. You make a thousand mistakes before you can see that you've been going in the wrong direction...if we come full circle, we come back to ourselves...and the person we were born to be...if not, maybe we have to keep starting over until we get it right? Who knows? But, we were born complete with all of our parts intact...those parts are our core...and they are ours alone...our spiritual fingerprint.
Your questions cause the mind and the soul to ramble...we should all ramble more often, don't you think? I guess I believe that our core self is really our soul...and we listen to it or we don't...but it doesn't change, it just tries to nudge us in our own direction to make our lives satisfying.
